Three Years Since His Death...

and I am still moving forward with my life. On the anniversary of his death, so easy to remember too since it is on Veteran's Memorial Day (which is also his Mother's birthday), it has been easier and easier; my Pastors at my old church in The Woodlands said it would be - and, I can attest it is true. At least it isn't quite so painful as it had been.

I don't know whether this is because I have been determined to focus on my education and I have obtained an Associates in Criminal Justice since then and presently pursuing my Bachelors in Forensic Psychology; or, because I have created so many blogs that has become a passion of mine to focus on my love for writing; or, being involved with so many types of jobs; or, what?? Perhaps, I am too busy to think about it so much - is that on purpose or, just a process or working through the shock of finding my spouse dead in our apartment and a natural process through moving forward with one's own life?

As part of moving forward with my life, I have also become involved with the police department's victim services. A couple of weeks ago, I had my first death notification to attend to. I had thought it was going to disturb me much worse than it did; but, it didn't - I survived the death notification. In fact, in a strange way, it was, in a sense, signifying a part of the healing process coming full circle and to a close.

Although that chapter of my life is coming to a close, it doesn't mean I will ever lose memories of a man that doted on me and loved me in a way that has been unmatched by anyone else on this earth. That will probably remain with me forever; just as the memories of all my loved ones that I have known on this Earth - my Grandparents, Great Grandmother, Great Aunts and Uncles, Cousins, Friends, and so much more that have made remakable impressions on my life in one way or another.

In the meantime, I know that he is one of my Guardian Angels, alongside with my Grandma. I am thankful for that as well as all the good memories I have had throughout the years.

Peace be with you and yours as you envoke memories of your loved ones as well. May God also provide you strength to move forward and affect others by the love you also have to share with them.

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